The Wait

by | Jul 27, 2021

I would never have considered myself an impatient person.   I was proud of not being part of the instant gratification culture, or so I thought, I was patient.  All that changes when you receive a cancer diagnosis.  The waiting is constant and it is soul crushing.  It is so out of my control and I don’t like that.

My wait now is for my insurance company to approve a PET scan that could allow the doctors to determine where my cancer started and what the correct treatment plan is.  Insurance is the roadblock right now.  I spent the first 10 years of my career working in Insurance.  First at Amerihealth Administrators then ended my career with Independence Blue Cross before staying home with my children.  I was used to hearing terms like precertification, deductible, medical review, denial and appeal.  My doctor’s initial request for the PET scan was denied by IBC.  With all my experience working in health care I can’t understand how my request for a diagnostic treatment that could prolong my life would be denied.  A new request has been submitted and I pray it is approved this time around.  And so I wait.  I wait know this thing is inside of me and all I want is to reach inside my body, pull it out and throw is as far away from me as I possibly could.  Get the “F” out now!

So the wait continues.  The patience is tested.  And I hope all the prayers continue.  Many have asked how you can help and the best peace of mind right now if knowing there is an army of prayer warriors out there for me.  Thank you for that.


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