I am not good at being vulnerable

by | Aug 31, 2021

In the quiet hours of this morning, with coffee in hand, I read today’s message from Jesus Calling.  I have been enjoying God’s words first thing in the morning, before the sun is up and before the chaos of life.

Today the words were to “Grow strong in your Weakness”.  Well that just couldn’t be for me.  Doesn’t God remember all the athletic events I completed, the strength I maintained during many life changes, being a single mom raising two beautiful children, maintaining a house for my family to live?

I now know this strength is not the same as the one God was calling out to me.  I am frail and would not have been able to accomplish all I have without his strength to lean on and lift me up.  I am frail now in my battle with cancer and need to allow him to be my rock.  He is the almighty healer and I am grateful to have him walking beside me once again through this journey.  I can’t do this alone.  I don’t want to do this alone.

I believe I will get through this and God will heal me.  I have plenty to do here and he is making me well for those priorities.

Today I am grateful for:  a warm bed with clean sheets to sleep in, the love of my friends and family and the grace of God who forgives us and heals us.


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